So some back story, I’m 32, got two children who I have every other weekend. The mother and I broke up around a year and a half ago. I didn’t give a shit then, and moved on with ease.
Since that time I met the most amazing woman, she had two kids as well, a loving family, and was simply everything I could ask for.
The kids got on great, we fell in love fast, I loved her kids like my own. I thought everything was going great, not so much.
6 weeks ago, she wanted a break. I was so fucking weak, I tried to change her mind over the next few weeks.
It got to the point of being completely blocked. I took this as a sign that it was done. She unblocked me though, and I tried again on the phone. She didn’t have none of it. On that phone call she asked me “how did you like my hair?” which was just weird.
That night I drove to her house as something was up, I could feel it, and sure enough another dudes car was parked on her drive. I couldn’t believe it, she said she wanted a break.
I’m a fucking mess, I know I acted like a fucking weak, pathetic, beta bitch and I need to change my mindset right now.
I would even take her back, that’s how fucked up my mind is atm... no self love, no self respect, but I can’t get this woman out of my head.
It doesn’t help that I’m going through this, missing her kids, can’t see my own kids due to this virus, and stuck inside 24/7.
It’s easy for people to say just get over it etc, but I literally can’t. I need solid advice, on what I need to do.
Last time we spoke she said there is no chance and to move on.
I slept with a woman, 35, four weeks after the breakup, in the moment it was great but just made me feel like shit more tbh.
I’ve got a good job, just about to launch a business, am in good health, and would say I’m probably 7 or 8 out of ten, but I’m just fucking down.
How do I man the fuck up, I realise I can’t continue like this.