I have good weeks where everything just comes to me and rings well I can charm anybody.

I have weeks where I feel like shit just sad and lonely not confident etc. no frame lots of social anxiety.

The past few weeks it’s like I’ve forgotten who I am, how to be me, how to have fun and cut loose, how to be confident how to act around people and girls etc.

I currently am living with my mother who is very negative and toxic towards me, it’s really starting to bother me, but when I first learned TRP and self improvement nothing bothered me nothing!!!!! I had a great attitude and frame and everything for a year and it just all disappeared piece by piece and I’m left forgetting how to get my good mindset back..I know I’m in here somewhere but I can’t find it.

And if I do it’s for a short period of time and I always end up looped back to the start is what it feels like. I’m hurting inside and I cover it up so well with a fake smile and jokes around my peers.

I’m into powerlifting, i look good, dress well I make great money, I have hobbies I enjoy doing, when I do things i feel good but it’s just the rush I’ve tried positive affirmations, meditating cold showers. I spend time reading tons of stuff. I just can’t figure out where to begin to heal myself and come back stronger and better I will never fucking give up but some advice in the right direction would be appreciated.

Anybody have these issues? Any advice?