I was a simp and a beta

First off, I wanna say thank you to everyone in this subreddit sharing the knowledge you have and your experiences.

I’ve always been the type of dude who never really talked to girls and waited until they talked to me, and when they did I froze up like pee in alaska.

I had nothing of value to show for myself. I played Minecraft and Halo with my buds before school everyday and my whole idea of obtaining a girl was being nice and then hopefully they would offer up their pussy on a pristine white plate for me to scrumptiously devour.

My first “girlfriend” was in 7th grade. All throughout 6th grade I had eyed this chick and knew I wanted her so I stuck around and remained friends with her. I watched her go from “I like Michael” to “Hunter is really cute” until she eventually turned to me. We started “dating” which lasted approximately 2 weeks and then she dumped me because she thought I didn’t like her; this is very much the effect of my pussyitis and ability to consistently freeze like god damn frozone.

My relationships after that were pretty much nonexistent up until junior year of high school. Me and my boys were gonna go to prom and every one of them had a date except for me. I told ‘em I’m not going without a date and proceed to not find a date up until 2 weeks prior.

One of my friends tells me she has a girl who also needs a date so I immediately ask her to prom and she says yes. Unbeknownst to me she has a boyfriend and she is the biggest hoe in the entire school. We start talking for a little bit; she hits me up and flirts with me which really gets my beta hive mind going apeshit.

She starts saying shit like “are you gonna say at (name of party host)’s house after prom?” and shit like that which really got me going thinking I’m gonna have a prime opportunity to lay some pipe, and throughout this entire flirtation conversation escapade I am devoting all my time to her. I was checking my phone constantly. Every time I got a snap from her a surge of dopamine filled both my head and my ball sack. I am also at this point doing nothing productive for myself in my free time other than practically begging for this chicks attention in hopes to lay the pipe. I am over the top “nice guy” to her and think I’m the greatest pussy slayer known to man and have a guaranteed lay set up for me.

Fast forward to prom night and we change at the party house, and about 20 minutes later she gets picked up by her boyfriend (which you can already probably imagine) and never talked to me again from that day forward.

I kept going through my head asking myself what did I do wrong, what I could’ve said or done to have secured the golden goose I placed so high on a pedestal that looked down and saw a small and insecure man.

I look at the redpill posts now and see nothing less than the pure truth. It wasn’t what I did or didn’t do wrong, but rather my mentality.

I look back on it now and see that I was easily used and treated like a doormat, which again was rightfully so. I presented myself in a way that was a doormat. If I could do it all over again I would have lost the girl as soon as I found out she had a boyfriend and found someone at the party. But that was a different me.

Redpill has opened my eyes and my days of simping and drooling over the thought of female attention are over. Thanks for opening my eyes and I look forward to seeing more quality eye opening posts.

TLDR; I was a cuck and a nice guy and have changed thanks to redpill.