I'm 36 and my wife (SAHM) is also 36, been married for 12 years. We have 3 kids, 11, 6, and 2. We had issues for most of the marriage because mom and wife dont get along which has caused resentment between her and I but not enough to end the marriage.
I found red pill around November 2019 after marriage had been falling apart for the previous 2 years. In 2017 Wife found out I was visiting massage parlors (happy ending) and that was the beginning of the end I suppose. We tried marriage counseling, I was told I'm a sex addict, then I went to a sex addiction counselor for a while which helped me understand some of my issues but did nothing for my marriage.
Fast forward to November 2019 when I find the red pill, I start reading the sidebar and get MORE serious about lifting, start dressing better, and being more spontaneous....and marriage gets better. We start fucking more. Her jealousy goes up based on the passive dread I've been letting off and divorce/separation talks start to fade away.
Anyway, you get the point. Theres alot more to be said but I'm trying not to write a novel.
Stats: 5'6" 175, was doing 5/3/1 before COVID, DL: 370, B: 294, SQ: 362, OHP: 164
Sidebar: NMMNG, MMSLP, Book of Pook. I really identified with NMMNG and realize I'm extremely guilty of covert contracts. Since learning that I've started to voice my needs and live more for myself.
Before C19: I was slowly building back my social life and going out with guy friends. Was crushing my lifts and seeing crazy gains. Wife was worried about chicks checking me out at the office.
Now: Can't go anywhere so social life is at ground zero. Started a home gym, bought a barbell, squat rack, and bench but can't find weights Anywhere. Working from home so again dread is non existent.
Bottom line is that I've seen tremendous results in my limited time since swallowing the pill but Covid has crushed that! Wife is again saying she needs a break, wants to separate, and says that I haven't done enough to prove to her that I won't hurt her again.
The biggest issue is that I was trending in the right direction and covid hit at the absolute worst time for me. I'm seeking advice on how do I recover from this. How the hell do I create dread when I have to be home all the damn time? How do I get my muscles to pop like they were when doing 5/3/1? My wife was responding like crazy to my new self and now that guy is gone.
For the experienced red pillers you've built up enough alpha to make it through the COVID storm but what about the rookies? Where do I go from here?