This is probably the worst thing you'll read today. I hope you all can offer man to man advice. Please. Sorry if this kind of post isn't allowed here.
Dated her 10 months. I loved her because she was wholesome, a good mother to her little girl, and so easy to trust that I never had jealous feelings. Early Feb this year she dumped me. Two months where she "needed space." Excruciatingly I gave her the space, and saw her every week or so when she'd reach out. We'd hang out, have fun, hook up. I followed the no contact rule as advised by coach corey wayne, and slowly got her back. A month ago, end of March, she turned around so fast I got whiplash. Wanted to get married, have babies, move in together. One month later, still great.
Yesterday I ask her some questions that have been weird paranoid feelings.
Over 14 hours of marathon pulling teeth, I finally get the "whole" truth.
The entire duration of our relationship she was seeing her ex, approximately weekly.
Since early January (one month before our break up) she has been escorting. So far she's been with, by my calculations, 80-100 clients in those months.
She told me that was what happened, but that she'd stopped and since this month, since she turned around, there hasn't been any.
When she fell asleep I took her phone and unlocked it. Password was my name. She's been with 7 or so this week alone, including the very day before.
I've been so betrayed. I never knew this level of manipulator exists. She's the best liar you could imagine, it's terrifying to imagine anyone could hide so much so well.
I feel like the world's biggest sucker. The most gullible fucker ever. I can never trust anyone again.
I am worried I might kill myself. I need support and man to man advice.
Thank you sincerely.