I pray and read the bible almost every day, yet I can't feel the presence of God. Is not going to Church the problem?
My father just works and watches TV. He isn't a good role model and can't give good advice. I wish my parents were Christians.
My friends have fallen into leftist or right wing ideologies or video games. We have nothing in common. Maybe it's all me and not them.
I often fantasize about girls as if I was in a romantic book or movie.
Is it bad that I pray to be more attractive? Some may think confidence is the only way to get girls, but that has been debunked by several studies linking facial attractiveness and initial attraction. A 8, 9 or 10 isn't going to marry an average looking dude (unless one has social status).
For the last four months, I have attempted to follow a schedule, tweaking it many times. I am never able to stick to one. Nothing is changing. My skills are exactly the same from a year ago; I'm not growing. I keep watching porn and masturbating multiple times a day.
I long for love, affection, and comfort.
I long for a deep meaningful friendship (do they even exist?) or just a connection.
I long for a mentor or a father
What do I do? How can I feel love and comfort from God?
Maybe some of it will disappear as my teenage hormones calm down. I hope so.
"Watch Jordan Peterson" or watch any other internet dads --> They all give obvious advice
"Toughen up" --> I tried to suppress the desires but I keep crawling back to it
"Lift and workout" --> I sprint once a week and have been doing a pushup routine consistently for 22 days straight. Yeah, I'm faster and stronger, but it's not fixing the problems I have.
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