I'm a female trying to leave the black pill mentality. Lately I've been working on self improvement and trying to get back in shape. I'm slightly overweight, but have been told I have a pretty or average face.

I noticed my friends are constantly pursued by men. I'm not attracted to most of these men as I don't think they objectively attractive but it feels horrible to be the wallflower.

I wish I didn't care if guys found me attractive or not. I want to be attractive to me and not them. Of course I will be shamed and made fun of by red and black pillars.

I feel obsessed with the black pill mentality and need help. I think horrible things like " why do men go for uglier girls and not me?" " being anorexic is the only way to get guys to notice me"