Mission: unlearn everything this unhealthy society has taught me, becoming the best man I can be, helping others to wake up, live a self-sufficient and wholesome lifestyle that is in tune with nature and God, leave something behind for future generations.

Stats: 29 years old, 6'1, 12% body fat, 160 pounds, now on week 4 of SL 5x5 doing 150 squat, 115 bench press, 200 DL. Have always been thin but active and capable in sports. Also lost some weight experimenting with different diets. Finally decided that wasn't good enough for me. Pleased to see progress already and it's one of the best things I've ever done for myself.

Reading the Bible for the first time as an adult. Starting with New Testament and am finishing synoptic gospels now. Saved this year. Fully accept the teachings of Jesus and redemption through Him. Have some interest in esoteric Christianity. I have an old childhood friend who never gave up on me and listened to my atheistic anger when I was a teenager and beyond, and he has a fellowship of good Christian men. He's the main person I talk to about Christ. Try to read a bit of the Bible every day.

I'm in a LTR of 4+ years with a beautiful, capable woman who is very attracted to me. We have had significant ups and downs but tbh I'm amazed at her commitment to me. She has her flaws and has some red flags from her past but is blossoming as a person and I've been far from perfect myself. She is finishing grad school and her earning potential will be 1.5 times mine as things stand. That being said she has learned and grown an enormous amount from being with me and from my frame.

Why I need help: I have no career. I always did well in school and was considered to have great potential. My bachelor's is in psychology. I spent the last 10+ years drinking, taking drugs, fornicating, partying, and doing the minimum to get by at work. Felt bad man. Finally healed (from the personal problems and a nightmare family situation) and decided to make a change, quit my office job 3 years ago, traveled and soul-searched. When I quit my job and traveled I worked on a permaculture farm. Since then I ran a small one man, one truck gardening business and worked at a restaurant. I'm unemployed at the moment and traveling again. I don't know where to go from here. I've thought about a master's in psychology but the cost is extremely, perhaps prohibitively high and I'm quite disgusted by political materialistic teachings which dominate in universities. My only debt is a small car loan.

I have a gift for talking to people, making connections, and problem solving. I feel that people around me always want to see me as a leader and in some ways I am, but historically I never take it seriously enough. I was pretty much the jokester, cool guy, ironic hipster (cringe). The reason I'm stuck is that my financial goals for the next 10 years include owning a house and starting a family- one in which the mother of my children doesn't need to bring in money- and I don't see a meaningful, achievable path forward for myself. I could see myself building a career as a life coach, counselor, or educator. I don't think I would be happy or fulfilled working in sales, for example. But, I worry about finances. Finally, my partner and I have had pre-marital sex and I don't know if it's possible to work with that moving forward in a healthy productive way, from searching the subreddit I suspect a lot of people here will say no. I think she's trying to grow in Christ with me and waiting for me to step up as well. She's going to have a large amount of debt so will need to work for at least a few years, but recognizes that she would be happier in the long term as a mother. So I'm feeling like I not only wasted a solid 10 years of my life (though there was some growth and learning that occurred, my life was pretty toxic), but don't know where to go from here. Thanks in advance men.