Over the year I have been coming to realizations about my faith. I used to be very hedonistic but still had a sense of spirituality throughout my life. I graduated college in May and throughout my 5 years here, I got drunk, Partied, and hooked up with a lot of girls with the help of trp. I did this because my parents were really strict with me in high school and I went off the rails as soon as I left my parents house to college.

However, I've always Sensed God in my life Even though I numbed myself with drinks and sex. I had an experience of going a month without jacking off and I felt like I was pure and holy Which really open my eyes to God and to want to have him in my life. I abstained from sex and sexual thought and I was very close to God.

That was almost two years ago and continued to party and hook up with girls anyways after. But the lockdowns was a blessing in disguise. I was forced to settle down and that allowed me to reflect and pray and meditate on God. I have no urge to drink in excess and hook up with random girls anymore.

But I did get together with a girl and we are in a relationship at the moment. I'm not sure what to about her.

my question is, what should I do if I'm already in a relationship and I decide I want to live as a Christian?

I am having premarital sex with her and that never seemed to bother her. She didn't grow up with her dad and desires to be a career woman which I've told her I don't want my wife to be that. She desires things like mice cars and designer clothes, which I think is pretty normal for a girl her to want. But I don't want that as my wife.

I understand RP dynamics pretty well, I found it 4 years ago. I'm just not sure the proper protocol to see if she's worthy of being a wife though she's pretty much your standard ho. She says she wants to be close to God and such but she didn't really act like it before. We met partying so she isn't a saint.