Using a throwaway.

Mission: Having an incredible woman by my side to form a stable family with has always been the goal.

Stats: 5’11”, ~20% BF, 195, 235 B and 290 DL

Reading: I have read approximately 1/5 of the listed reading (closer to 1/4 now) from RPC and 2-3 from MRP.

Finances: I am a student. Not lacking money.

Spiritual: I have strong (not perfect) faith. When my faith is at its lowest I neglect prayer and mindfulness but don’t turn towards sin for comfort.

I will marry a Christian woman. That has always been the goal. However, I recently met a girl who is challenging this.

She’s two years younger than me and absolutely beautiful. She’s conservative, doesn’t sleep around, has been open with me about her past relationships (or lack thereof), she’s extremely bubbly, and family oriented. Everything I would want in a wife. I feel happy looking through her photos. However, I recently discovered that she’s Muslim (she doesn’t know that I’m Christian and doesn’t know I like her). If anything she has tried to friend zone me once or twice.

I know it’s wrong but I am feeling extremely let down and disappointed. I know I can’t have her and feel so numb. I have found the perfect woman (a rare find to say the least) and she’s off limits. How do I cope? How can I stop looking at her photos and feeling sorry for myself.

She has every quality I’d want in a wife aside from being of a different religion of course.

Anyone dealing with something similar? My DMs are open.