Hi there,

I know, I could have shared my story on many other subreddits, but I fermly believe this one is the one providing the more logical and manly advices/solutions. I'll try to be as short and direct as possible.

Background wise, I'm from a relatively poor family, mother got me huge financial problems (gave bank checks with my name and can't afford to provide my account, so yeah, researched by the local police right now). Also, very conservative society.

For the main problem : my guts, my instinct and all my feelings are screaming for me to leave my job ; job I got thanks to my best friend IRL. The thing is, and for no real reason, my employer is always trying to find ways to verbally abuse me, in a personal way. Having problems with costumers ? Unleash your anger on your engineer. Problem with wife ? Same. Problem with other employees ? Your engineer is just sitting there, go ahead. The thing is, he knows about my problem.

So yeah, I'm really fed up waking up every morning to do something I don't personally like for someone I really hate, from the deep bottom of my heart. I told my parents (yup, still living with them), that I'm planning on resigning, they went full "DON'T DO THAT, YOU WILL SCREW US" mode, even my father, who is the person I respect the most on earth, threatened to leave his job as well if I resign.

I've started two weeks ago to look for other jobs, with no real success, but I really can't stand this situation right now. LTR is supportive, advicing to find another job before I resign, but I'm about to explode.

I know most of you won't care, but I really need some external advices ; I'm usually in between Alpha an Beta, but I feel like I'm being forced to me Beta, and I hate myself for it ; and I know for sure that disappointing my family will make me feel bad as well.

Thanks for reading, I would really appreciate some objective insights.