After having being friendzoned a countless number of times, I'm starting to wake up to the harsh realities. I've been a lurker here for some time on an old account, read the sidebar on /r/redpill. In the past, I have gone kind of "dark tetrad" on women on some occassions just for fun, and the response is terrifyingly good from most of them. However, I'm experiencing some depression form the realization that a romantic ltr might not be possible with a woman. The balance of her suddenly viewing me as a beta seems too thin for that approach, upon which she will eventually dump me for another guy. I'm just reciting some theory here.

Have you redpillers accepted that your life with women post-redpill will involve never letting your guard down with a woman? Is a romantic, lovey-dovey relationship not doable in the long term ever, you think?

Am I in a depression phase of this wake-up? How do you get over it?

The saddest part about all the red pill theory I've read this far, is that most of it seems to fit my experiences with women perfectly. And that's pretty damn discouraging for a romantic.

I don't know what I'm trying to say here, only that I've just realized that life is too short not to fuck hot ass bitches, and that women in the past have really fucked me up emotionally by rejecting the shit out of me for trying to be a nice human being to them in the process. Classic story of a nice beta cuck, I know. Although I've not always been beta or cuck-ish, just plain old nice and understanding without being too nice or too understanding. Yet this seems too much for the average woman; it seems her respect for a man will decline proportionate with the intensity of his "nice"-traits, whether one wants to call that beta in this context or not. I'm not bitter, just sad, yet willing to do whatever it takes to start getting hotties into my bed asap.