So I just had my best work-out session and I was really feeling good... But then I realized something. During the entire time I had in mind the image of my long time oneitis who I kind of hate now. So I'll put it simple. I haven't talked to her in months, but I'm still getting angry when I hear some stuff about her, and the hate that I have for her is basically the best catalyst for my motivation.

I have a good job, good friends with whom I spend my time, good career perspective, my looks are getting better from month to month etc. while She is unemployed and living off her parents(She even left college after one semester), She is a 6-7 at best, her personality is shitty, etc. Then why the fuck do I still have feelings and care about her life? I know it's not rational, but why can't my rational part supress this emotions? I don't like that my best source of motivation is my hate towards some bitch from my past.

I just want to Be motivated like this everyday, without thinking about her, because I don't think that it is healthy to let hate motivate me(even though it brought me to TRP and helped me improve myself). So, what do You guys think? Can You give me some advice? Or put some sense into me? Thanks for your help Brothers.