Hello,

I wanted to share here some of my thoughts that cause me anxiety and depression, try to see it as an outsider in order to find a new approach that can help me see my problemas as if they were not such a big deal or offer me new approaches. I want to do this exercise in here to see if anyone can relate, contribute or it can be helpfull to anyone going through the same situation.

Background

Young and bald, not very lucky with women and not really someone who's good in social situations. I take good care of my body, I'm big and shredded because I enjoy doing sport. I have a typical office work, and besides Gym I have no hobbies.

Thoughts

The event trigger of this thought was making up with a girl, a girlfriend from a female flat during this week. The root of the thought is that I feel, that because of the lack of my sexual intercourse during my life and social circle, that I'm not important for anyone, but anyone I interact with (specially women) is to an extent important to me. Women I have intercourse occupy my thoughts for a while such as 'I could have done more, I wont do it again,...'

I liked this girl, and I seen her more and obviously would like to keep making out with her (she's not yours, it's just your turn) but I can't still stop my hard wired BP brain to create those thoughts that create a crippling anxiety and depression to me.

She probably has already been with other men, we were both drunk and she barely probably remembers, but being bald and the times of sexual inflation we are in, I feel I should be glad that at least I got to be with a women.

This results in me overthinking, should I go out today to see if I see her? When she comes by, what should I say?

I wanted to go home this weekend, but I am thinking of staying so if I go out and see her maybe I can hook up again.

Conclusion

At the end of the day, she will just be one more (or one less, depends how you see it) but I cannot stop my brain to automatically create those thoughts. Yes I know they are beta, yes I've read the sidebar and Rollo's books already, still my situation brings me to create those thoughts that internally kill me.

Has anyone ever experienced this? Is there any solution that just 'go out to make out with more girls'? I'm aware this might be a problem directly related to abundance mentality, but to some of us, we cannot reach this mentality because our access to women is very limited.

Maybe I should seek for professional help.

Thanks for your time.