TL;DR: Ex-plate says she will "feel like shit if she kisses me when she talks to her bf next day", proceeds to do it when the date ends and leaves after stopping me from kissing her twice. Having a debate if its worth pursuing or withdraw attention, looking for your opinions.


Background

Was kind of obsessed with this girl, heard TRP's advice to withdraw attention and let her chase me, a few weeks later she tells me she's free two days and we can do something funny.

Send her a text, place and time and to come with the empty stomach (she has cooked for me before and to do something during the date).

Important note, she's on a LDR.

The date

Keep the kino since the beginning, when we are done cooking we go outside I sit on top of her and force her to feed me.

Put some music and I start rubbing her inner thigh and stuff while we talk, no resistance or whatsoever.

We finish our drinks, have an elastic bed we start doing stupid shit around.
At one point she's lying and I'm on top of her, pull her shirt up and start playing around her belly with my fingers, she turns around and sits on top of me (legit feeling almost her pussy with my dick).

Everything seems to be OK, I try to go for the kiss but she stops me, I let things cool off a little bit and try again with the same result.

We get off the bed, she's on top of me while I sit on a chair and drops the "if I kiss you tomorrow when I talk to my BF I will feel like shit.

So yeah, LJBF'd kind of, not enough SMV, escalation, or whatever. I am on my journey and I will not always score, I'm ok with it, my goal was to try it.

At this moment I am just rubbing her back with one hand (almost removing her bra) and the other hand on the thigh, I felt like she maybe needed some comfort that I'd just not fuck her and ignore her.

But it's late, so we agree that she goes home, and here comes the part that got me thinking a little bit.

I walk her outside, she tells me to close my eyes if I trust her (really thought if this was entering her frame by doing this), but I'm whatever, and she kisses(not a cheek kiss) me and leaves, lol.

My question

I think I am having an internal debate to what is TRP logic and my guts. I am unsure tho if my gut is just my BP side talking louder.

My RP side tells me to withdraw back attention, she doesn't owe me her body/sex and I don't owe her my time/attention. I should even really think if it's worth seeing here again even if she proposes. She just kissed me at the end to keep the attention/hamster spinning on my side.

My gut (or what I wonder it could be my BP side) is telling me that she just want's me to give her some comfort before fucking. I do not mind giving it to her in order to get sex as she lives close and usually we do funny stuff.

Some lessons learned

  • Woman logic: Women contradicting themselves, whats new? Funny she would just feel bad about the kiss while I'm sure her BF wouldn't be happy to seeing me rubbing her thighs or sitting in top of me lol.

  • From my position of scarcity, I enjoyed my time with this girl, spent time with her when not on dates as well on class. A woman cannot be attracted to a man who feels like he's always available. The fear of losing you/the chance of her to chase you is a good point to make things easier.

  • Escalate, don't be nervous, don't cockblock yourself, you are a man and man like fucking woman, so be sexual. It is her job to reject you, don't do her job.