I went from a tall fat fuck soyboy with no self respect who played 12 hours of video games a day and putting minimal effort into my degree to a tall, muscular guy with stubble who carries himself confidently and has a good haircut in the span of the last year or so.
The result of this is that I am now physically attractive all of a sudden, something in all my 22 years that I had never experienced, I was always the nerdy guy who people liked because I was funny (you have to be to have any friends as a fatty). I was never considered to be a sexual partner with any woman, only an entertainer for my entire life.
Now thats changed, and its a big shock for me, I still feel deep down like im that ugly dude I was before even though rationally I know I'm attractive. This leads to being completely unable to ask out women I know 100% are into me and would say yes. I am a pretty social person so I talk to alot of people, and I repeatedly get women to the point where I just have to "say the word" so to speak and they'd be mine, but I just cant do it for some unknown reason. Its frustrating having a hb8 giving me puppy dog eyes, complimenting me, laughing at all of my jokes, and being too much of a pussy to just ask her for a drink.
Maybe I'm not as confident as I appear or more likely its because I have never done anything intimate with a woman before and don't know where to start, and am afraid as being outed as inexperienced with a chick, because I act like I am a player and thats what most people think. I'm a 22 year old with the romantic experience of a high schooler.
I'm considering seeing a therapist for this, but its expensive as fuck.