I posted about my failing marriage under this throwaway about 2 years ago.
In 2 years, not much has changed really. Our issues are the same as they've always been. We have 2 more years of marriage therapy under our belts. In the last round of fights, I asked for a separation again. This was the 3rd time I have asked for one. My wife instead recommended this weekend long couples counseling thing by The Gottmans, relationship experts some of you may have heard of if you've done as much marriage counseling as we have done throughout our marriage.
We did the weekend and we did learn some new coping skills I suppose, but in the weeks since the counseling weekend we haven't really improved things. Our fights are the same as they always have been. Not knock-down drag-out yelling fights, just very long fights in which nothing is accomplished and we spend days in awkward separation as we recover.
I still have fantasies about living alone, in a house without stress and anxiety caused by a slow train-wreck of a marriage. I frequently visit realtor sites to find houses in my neighborhood so I don't have to be far away from my kids.
But we don't have major problems. As my other post stated, no cheating, no lying, no alcoholism or abuse. Just sort of low-level unhappiness and discontent with little progress made to resolve our problems. I feel like I disgust her. I'm very good at making her angry, but cannot seem to make her happy no matter what I do. I do not feel safe or comfortable with her. She wants me to be emotionally available but I always regret the times that I do it, because I say the wrong thing and get blamed and make her angry.
I am fully checked out and am not interested in making this work. But I also feel like it's silly to end a marriage without any of the big problems that worse marriages go through.
I'm 40, she's 37. We have 2 kids, age 7 and 3.
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Man I’m right where you are I think. I’ve been married 2.5 years but no kids luckily. It’s like when we have an argument she’ll raise her voice (not scream but just trying to make a point) or bring up past things. If I raise my voice then she calls me out on it and when I bring up the past she always says “why are you bringing that up now?” It’s just like we’re playing by separate rules and I end up just shutting down and staring straight ahead because I’d rather just shut up than continue in a circular argument. Or if I say fine we’ll do it your way then she says “you’re just saying that because you don’t want to keep talking”. She’s right.
I finally told her about a month ago how unhappy I was and how our arguments were a reason. She’s been better about not arguing about the small stuff, but I can tell that she’s thinking it. I’ve picked my battles through our 7 year relationship, maybe to my own detriment, and seeing her struggle to do so now over mundane shit makes me still worry.
Right now I’m just trying to get through the holidays before I decide what I’m going to do. Part of me thinks, this isn’t terrible and that I’d be throwing away our friends and a future that’s already planned out but the other half of me thinks about that future and how I feel now and wonders if I could do it for the rest of my life. Feel like part of me is just staying out of convenience.
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You are not alone, my friend. I am in the same struggle you are in. Nothing is wrong, just nothing is right. Married a long time, working hard on the marriage the last few years, ironically with all the marriage counseling, I think things are actually worse than ever. Unlike the guy at the bottom, I understand. We had an issue that was my issue the other week. The counsellor even said, she was surprised to find an issue for me and that everything up till now has been my wife's issues. She is trying, but since the main issue is that she hates herself, the more we work on things, showing her how many of our issues are from her, it just breaks her down some more which in turn projects back on our marriage. Like you, with nothing really wrong, and the damage it will do to the kids, I have been trying to make it work. I just can't imagine the next 20 years being like the last 20.
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My wife and I are the same age as you. Two girls, same age. No cheating, abuse or drugs. No money issues. But we are just "best friends" and that's all she wants and at this point I'm feeling the same way.
I started listing the similarities in what you wrote about your wife that I can very much relate to, but the bottom line is this... how long are we gonna do this? I mean let's say we did keep this going, what happens when our kids finish school in the 2030s? There is no way you or i would put up with this if we didn't have kids, so what happens when the kids are adults and it's just the two of you again? I've really been thinking a lot about that over the last few months, what are your thoughts? Think I'm gonna pull the trigger after the holidays. 25 year marriage is a while lot different than a 10 year one in the eyes of the court
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You're in a far worse situation than I am. My wife just doesn't want to be intimate anymore (nothing to do with my physical appearance) but she still wants to spend every day together. We already have a night of wine in bed with a movie planned for the night.
But I'm not gonna spend the rest of my life celibate. So in Feb of 2020, I'm gonna start the process. She can stay in the house until it's not healthy, but there's no reason to stay married if she doesn't want to act like a wife. Same with your wife.
I mean what's the reason you haven't filed? Obv you and i are both scared of what being alone again feels like after all these years, but damn bro if you're fantasizing about being free I don't get what's stopping you. Just wait until the holidays are over for the kids and pull the trigger.
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