She cheated. I didn't know she cheated until about 3 weeks ago. It just reopened everything. I was over her, I AM over her... it's just knowing that she lied to my face for all these months, and knowing that I still have to hand my kids over to her 50% of the time, it's too much for me sometimes. So I cry now. I cry in the shower sometimes. I cried this morning after I dropped my kids off to her, pregnant with her AP's kid. I cry and I hurt. Fuck. I know it will get better. But I wish this never happened.