On the grounds of adultery I(30M) took my stbxw(26f) to divorce court recently. I got the kids(f4 & 2) and child support and everything I wanted really. My family says I should be happy and are acting like I should be celebrating, but I can't help but feel like this one of the worst couple days of my life. I never imagined my life like this and didn't want my children growing up with divorced parents, but after everything their mom did I couldn't forgive her.

I feel this dread and sadness on heart. I wish it would go away.

Will I ever feel better?