I had the kids this morning. My son said something about how it would be nice if all "four" of us (mom, dad, him and his sister) could be at his concert tonight so that we could be a family. I explained to him that we were still a family, and that we all still love each other. I told him the only thing happening now is that Mommy and Daddy just don't want to be boyfriend and girlfriend anymore. That's it. We still love each other, we still love him and his sister... we're still a family. We just have two places to live... but we're a family.

Then his sister added "yah, and if Mommy marries (her boyfriend) then we'll have TWO daddies!".

I stopped myself right in my tracks. Went to the other room and had a good 30 second cry. I want them so badly to see that mommy left me for this other guy, but I know it's not healthy for them to see things that way. I just have that internal struggle of wanting them to see how shitty mommy is being... but knowing that they're better off not knowing.

EDIT- I should mention that we told the kids about the divorce 14 days ago... and they've been meeting the boyfriend for the last two months. I assume that they'll figure this "Mom was shitty to Dad" part out at some point.