It's simply inhuman the way I treated a lot of women. My last GF, I've broken up with her with a fucking sms, and guess what, on the last day of the year. She were going to give ourselves silver rings to symbolize our relationship on that day. And after we kind of got back together guess what, my final proposal was either we split, or I could have side chicks. I was so, so deep into being a parasite, that I eventually did everything I could to ruin her it seems.

Since then I've kinda said sorry to her, but she was still mad. I still think about telling what I think now. She was so fucking loving and caring, I was the world to her, and I've made her pay for it.

I'm deeply ashamed of what I once was, and now I'm trying to be more like she was with other women, what I did can never be undone, but maybe o can spread selfless love now.