To start, I've had three sexual partners, 1 being a FWB and the rest two were ex boyfriends (Pre FDS). Whenever I had sex with any one of them, all positions were decided by them. Now, that I look back, they chose all positions where they didn't have to look at my face but my bare back. My choice being missionary, since it's an intimate position where you can lock eyes and kiss, I wanted all of them to try it. They did but for only few seconds while looking elsewhere and didn't even kiss. I felt insecure back then and rightfully so. I thought, maybe there's something wrong with how I look. It shattered my self-confidence. Now, it just feels humiliating. They humiliated my very being.

The more I read FDS posts now, the more I realize it's all because of their porn addiction. Porn warped their minds. It created a false image of what a woman should be like IRL, unedited, unbrushed and without filters. It also made me realize, this might've happened and happens to many other women like me who are so stunning and can be 8/10 even on a bad day, not even bragging. I've gotten a lot of compliments from beauty experts and one that stood out was my face looks like a Disney Princess and my eyes and smile are the most attractive features of my face. I get this compliment from strangers so often that it has become normal to hear. So, when those men pulled such a stunt, it made even a woman like me self-conscious and I started feeling so so so insecure.

Please, when the next time you do have sex, take this lesson into account. If he's mostly choosing positions where your face isn't visible to him, then he's a selfish scum who's only using your body to masturbate. Dump that scrote right then and there and leave with your dignity.