This is my first Christmas being single. I've serial dated a bunch of LVM. Now I'm happier single but yesterday on FB a lot of people were posting their gifts from their partners. I had one small gift from my son, that my ex bought me, that I told him what to buy. I found myself feeling really down about it. But then I realised, I have the money to buy myself gifts if I want. Why am I so upset that I haven't had something from some guy when I can just buy myself it? Why is me buying it not filling that gap? I think it's because I've had so many men try to compensate for their shitty love by buying me gifts. And they are usually gifts I've given them the idea for because deep down I know I'll be more hurt by them buying me something I won't like.