But every time it just feels 'bad' to say 'No, I have no girlfriend' or to see friends having loads of fun having their girlfriends and fucking them like crazy.

I'm not jealous, I'm conflicted. I feel as if I choose MGTOW because 'I can't get a woman anyway, so let's act as if it's a goal, instead of the blame being on me'.

Any tips and/or thoughts? Thank you.