I'm going to keep this short. This is my first post on Reddit, so please bear with me and my lack of experience.

I have a raging battle within me. Mainly, a feeling of needing a higher purpose for my life. Not to demonstrate something to someone, or to the world, but to myself.

A little background on me. I am a 21 year old student of computer science in Romania. My father had a military background, being an army colonel. Don't get me wrong, I love what I am studying, and love what this field brings to the world. But I feel the need of a higher purpose in my life. Not to work for a certain company, earning god knows how much money. I care about money, but I am not obsessed. I see money as a by-product of doing what you love and what you are good at. But, I don't know, I have an extremely strong urge of something much larger than working for a company, or heck, having a bussiness of my own. Maybe its by paternal inheritance, but I feel the need of joining the army. Rejoicing with real men, men of value, purpose, serving something beyond themselves. Defending their country, defending their people. I always had this urge in me, albeit not so strong up until a few years. I mainly didn't join the army because I was fat, and afraid of being mocked, rejected and all sorts. Also, my father, being the colonel that he is, didn't want me to go into the hard world of the army, wanted me to get an education etc. But now I am in great shape, having workout almost 5 days a week non stop for the past 2 years.

Maybe its just a temporary state of mind, but I do not know. I am asking you gentlemen, men of longer time on this Earth: have you had anything similar? Is it my age?

Would a better solution be getting my degree in computer science, and see then if the army needs some sort of IT guy on a base, etc.?

Any responses will be much appreciated. Thank you!