My gf (23F) with 7 years of relationship wanna keep her virginity for wedding but cheated on me (23M) with married man

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I don't really have a friend that I can sincerely talk to so I wanna share with you guys here, English is not my mother tongue so please forgive my mistakes.
A little bit of background : We met in high school and we were in a relationship ever since, we had broken up once for 6 months in 5 years ago but we got back together eventually. She's innocent and overprotected by her parents. I'm a nice guy but I love parties and having fun. We had amazing times and memories together and we had never got into a fight with each other, since I was always making concessions. She wanna keep her virginity for wedding and always acted like she was abused when I'm about to penetrate. So I respected her decision and enjoyed sex without penetration

Recently, she was working 2 jobs and cant seems to find the time for me. I understood that but I still tried find chances to meet such as dinners or weekends. Then I found out she acted cold to me, I sincerely asked her if she has something to talk about. As always, we can never have a deep conversation since she's always end up crying or staying silent. I thought it might be the stress she has from work so I planned a trip for 2 of us. We both had fun in the trip, but she continued to act the same when we got back to our daily grind. As this time I really had a bad feeling about that.

Then one day she asked me to design her company's website, I was checking her phone for a logo then suddenly she deleted a conversation and I saw that. The day after I got into her account despite she has changed her password. I found out she was talking with her manager for a while and asked him out that night. I've gone insane and trying to catch her in hand but I cant. The day after I met her for a talk, she denied and said that they was just colleagues having dinner together. I said I wanna break up because our relationship recently has no sex, no time spent together, and now my faith in her love is also lost. She cried and admitted she was having sex with him but only for one time. I felt so pity for her because the guy that she having affairs with is married and he even had a kid. She knew that but she cannot help herself. I still loved her so much and it hurts like hell, but I know one thing that I can't continue with this toxic relationship. I don't wanna ruin her life and that fucker's family so I didn't tell anybody about this even her parents.
Maybe I cared for her feeling so much I ended up being a dumb fuck.
It is so hard keeping it to myself, I think it would be better to write it down here.
TL;DR! : 7 years girlfriend cheated on me with a married man