Sorry if the title is a bit confusing, I didn't know how to word this feeling correctly. I just feel like I'm making odd and weird choices here, and everyone else making the "normal" ones, even though they're stupid. For example, my mother and half-sister, whom I live together with. My sister's been on TikTok quite a while now, and his heavily involved in lgbt stuff. She's even come out as a lesbian, which I've learned to accept in the meanwhile. But now she's also "non-binary", has lots of lgbt friends and stuff, and seems to neglect school. Graduted middle school with the bare, bare minimum requirements for highschool, and is now persueing "lower highschool education", but is still mainly busy with social media and whatnot. And my mother's got it too now. Heck, today I even walked in on her practicing a TikTok dance or something because "if my daughter does it, why not me".... and my question is.... why? Why is it always "my daughter...?" and never "my son is persueing higher education, so I'm proud of him" or "my son is staring to exercise and get healthy again, I'll take an example out of that" or something like that...

Because while these two idiots are practicing TikTok dances or starting facebook drama or whatever, I'm studying my ass of for my higher highschool education, looking into scholarships for later, looking into colleges, and am even studying for the biology olympiade, which I do plan to participate in. And all of it feels for nothing when I see people do stuff like this. Why should I continue this instead of becoming a social media dweller and becoming full bluepill mode, that seems the cool thing and now and seems to make you happy and succesful. I'm starting to wonder if all my work is even going to pay off, seeming how much college costs and how good the job market/general economy is, when I could just complete some lower highschool education and call it a day...

It just seems like by not making a "mainstream choice", I get left out all the time. By my own damn family, if you can even call them that... I'm glad you guys are here at least and I can read posts here. Single mothers suck to live with. Even if this post can be kinda vague, I'm glad at least I can express my thoughts here. Some support would be appreciated, since I'm kinda starting to lose hope here...