My dear MGTOW brothers,
I went MGTOW in 2014 (february 2014 to be precise) and my life has only gotten better over the years. Sure, I sometimes felt loneliness and the desire for love and sex but they were easily overcome by good friends, dogs and practicing my hobbies. Those brought me great joy.
I’ve basically been having the time of my life doing the things I enjoy on my terms and having no toxic relationship or negative influence in my life.
At the same time, I was doing nothing to please women, I was even actively avoiding talking to them. So I never got any interest from women, which made living a MGTOW lifestyle easier (because there was no temptation).
Last week, I was going out with my friends (paintball game in the forest, it was great), and some women were with us. As usual, I said hello and exchanged basic politeness and then proceeded to talk with my male friends while ignoring the women. I could hear the women bitching and nagging and it was, as usual, a great reminder why I decided to go MGTOW.
I was enjoying the game and laughing with my friends when a girl began to show interest in me, for the first time in almost 4 years. Rather than rejecting her with a cold hearted attitude, I let my barriers down and enjoyed her feminine energy. I had a great time with her and it felt really really good but…now, I’m torn apart by feelings and I hate it.
It's like it was before I went MGTOW. I think about her a lot of the time. I have feelings of love, sexual desire and at the same time I feel pain.
Compared to the previous years when I led a calm, happy and serene life, this is shit. And this feminine energy and sex isn’t worth feeling like that.
Worst thing is, this woman isn’t that beautiful. It’s just that it’s been too long since I last was intimate with a woman. As long as I didn’t have any interest from women, there was no temptation, but now that there is, it’s like my body craves feminine energy and companionship. I’m going down a road I know all too well and that will lead me to misery if I follow it, but at the same time I don’t know if I will have the strength to resist the temptation.
I don’t want to keep feeling like this. I want to go back to my normal way of being. Worst thing, I think she is trying to get in my pants.
I live in Africa, so prostitutes aren’t safe to use here.
My dear MGTOW brothers. Please.