I think dating is hard for me because I am just too different from the average person in thought and personality. Unlike most people I don't fit in extremely easy. I never go to parties or follow pop culture which makes it hard for me to converse with most people.

Running game, PUA, dating, being a fun guy who takes girls on adventures is something that is too foreign for my brain. It feels extremely unnatural for me just like a dog trying to learn calculus. Something like calculus came easy to me while my classmates were struggling with it but things like dating and being an alpha male require a step by step manual. I wish someone actually woke me up earlier and told me I need to do something that is more congruent with my personality.

When I look back on my past I feel so much pain and cringe from wasting all that time on dating, trying to get a girlfriend and failing repeatedly in front of my friends. I wasted so much time trying to be attractive and aloof thinking that there was something wrong with me and I needed to completely abandon my old self to become an "alpha male". I was constantly hearing people tell me I just need to be confident and positive but it never worked. How many guys look forward to struggling endlessly and finally finding the right girl who makes it all worth only to realize there was no right girl.

When I read about great MGTOW like Tesla I admire them more than any guy in a happy relationship. I've been noticing that all great men who accomplished something were single men who didn't play the dating game. It makes me mad that I wasted all my time on dating when I could have used it to focus on myself and done something that felt more natural to me. I could have accomplished something by now.

I've dropped social media and stopped hanging out with people who keep putting me down for being single. I just feel so betrayed it's like everyone I thought was my friend was lying to me and constantly giving me false hope so I wouldn't quit. Whenever I tried to quit they would tell me "Don't quit so easily. There is a someone for everyone". I am not even sure why I started playing a rigged game.

I am so behind in life compared to all the great MGTOW who used their time wisely. They spent all their time and money on themselves. There were great MGTOW who were my age that changed the world and I'm just another guy who failed to reach his potential because he discovered dating instead of going MGTOW. There is a whole world beyond dating. Most people will never know anything outside the rat race because they are NPCS who don't think outside the box. Do you think Einstein was chasing hot girls and running game or working on his next big theory?

If you're a young guy and your personality is like mine you have to go MGTOW. Dating is a black hole that I wish I never discovered. I need to move on and let go of the past.