"She was my GOAL"; Wrong fucking goal brother. And you are suffering only because of your wrong approach to life. Let it go and set yourself free.

Hello. I wanted to go ahead and post on here to somehow pull me out of this hole that I'm in.

My wife and I recently got married and at our honey moon(3 months after the wedding) she told me had been having an affair since before the wedding. She had no intentions to stop seeing this person. This other person is married and works with her.

Last week I ripped everything out of the apartment because she refused to commit to me. The woman I had spent years with just tossed me to the side for someone else.

I have now been forced to move back into my parents house. I question what to do with my life. She was my goal. Giving us a happy life was my goal. But now it's shattered.

I'm at the point where all I can really do is have faith. This experience has been beyond horrible. As if it's been plucked from a story book. There are so many things in my mind that just make no sense. That act of doing this is literally beyond my conscious understanding. I feel as if I'm stuck within a really bad dream and any moment I'm going to wake up. All I can do is have faith. Have faith that there is a reason for this high degree of chaos in my life. That something even crazier is coming to counter act it. Everything happens for a reason but I'm literally left not understanding why. Hoping that one day I do understand. Hoping that this isn't my life from here on. I've fallen so far. I've mentally and emotionally have fallen to places I've never been to before. Places I didn't think I could go to. As if I'm lost in darkness searching for the light.

I'm scared, I'm terrified, I'm depressed, I'm lost, and now I have no idea what to do but to sit and wait for all of this to pass...

Right now all I can think about is her with him and even as I write this they are probably doing things that I don't want them too...

Please anyone. Help me.