Obviously, that is you. You're the only one going your own way. No one can tell you what to do. Your ideas are the only correct ideas.

You never have to justify why you live life the way you do. No one else can tell you what to do. You can abandon anyone for any reason that is toxic in your life. You don't have to defend it, explain it, or anything else. You never even have to tell anyone about it.

Make your own ideas, don't just read one book, watch one video, listen to one voice; your ideas might be influenced by them, but aren't controlled by them. You lead, don't follow. If you don't like your idea, change it. If it used to work and now it doesn't, abandon it. Come to your own conclusions.

Just walk your path. In the end, you're alone with what worked for you.