I [25F] feel like I messed up.

Last night, I had asked my husband if he wanted sex. My husband didn’t really say anything at first but just stared at me annoyed. He then rolled his eyes and said “if you want” but I had told him that I didn’t want if he wasn’t in the mood, and that we could do it another time. He seemed to have gotten mad at my response, though. He became pretty adamant that even though he didn’t want to, the fact that I had suggested it meant that it was going to happen. I tried telling him I didn’t want to anymore but that just seemed to make him madder and he grabbed me and dragged me in to the bedroom. He kept holding me down and forcing my legs apart and I was trying to kick him away. It just kept going and I ended up just faking an orgasm so that he would stop. Afterwards he just held and cuddled with me for hours while I cried until I fell asleep.

I don’t know how to process what happened. I don’t know why it happened, but I feel like I asked for it. He's never usually that rough. I just feel empty now. I don’t know what to do. I don’t feel like I can talk to anyone. I don’t really have anyone TO talk to.

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