When I'm feeling weak, I start craving pleasure and want to leave monk mode. I think society is collapsing because people lack self control and always chase pleasure. I'm trying to avoid becoming like everyone else by being disciplined and going monk but it's getting harder every year when you're doing it alone and nobody understands you.

Society tells me to be the hedons we're naturally born as and to enjoy and have as much sex as possible because it's a natural desire that shouldn't be repressed. I notice that I start to feel jealous when I see happy couples because in the moment, I was already feeling weak and seeing a happy couple made me want to switch places with the other guy so I could feel the same pleasure and escape the pain. My brain seems to forget that relationships aren't perfect like fiction but in the moment, I just want to experience the pleasure from the happy couple and want it to last forever so that I can escape the painful state I was in. It almost sounds like a drug addiction but society seems to support it because if everyone is addicted it's not an addiction.

I know it's impossible to always feel pleasure and pain is necessary to grow but it seems I can't stop craving pleasure. Everyone tells me to give up monk mode and just follow my desires because desire is the only thing that matter but this has to be wrong if so many people are living in debt and making too many poor life decisions. How do you overcome the desire for pleasure?