I still feel upset that it's not possible to find a loving relationship with a woman. By default, women just use men for resources. It's just in their nature, so I know I should just accept it. However, what I actually feel is total contempt and disgust for that. When I think of someone just using "love" as a way to exploit money and resources from a person, I feel nauseous. I've tried, but I don't know that I can ever completely accept that.