I've been feeling numb for a long time after I started reading about MGTOW and observing people in real life. I feel trapped in a blue pill world because I have no one to talk to. I just realized I've spent all my time mindlessly browsing MGTOW forums and feeling anger at my simp past.

I think everyone else around me is also numb but they're trying to tell me how exciting life is once they got into a relationship. But they sometimes talk about the fights and tell me it's normal to fight because that's what couples do. I've been paying attention to people's words and I'm starting to notice the lies they tell themselves.

How do you use the red pill to make your life better? I think I'm doing something wrong if I'm wasting my life regretting the past.