Uhg. Billie Eilish doesn't turn me on and I don't listen to her music. That's why I don't understand why I had this stupid dream in which I was banging her. I don't like her weird hair colors, and I think she looks stoned in a lot of pictures. She's not for me. I don't get why my subconscious mind put her into a dream and now I have to remember doing her. Yuck.
This crap has happened before too. I've dreamed of making it with other women that I don't even like. Why doesn't my subconscious at least have the courtesy to send me a woman in my dreams that I actually like? Send me Lola Glaudini or a young Catherine Deneuve.
Maybe this is an after effect of jettisoning dating from my life. Is this just an after effect of going MGTOW?
