Here was my first ever post titled “What the Fuck Have I Gotten Myself Into” to askMRP which I was such a faggot I deleted. Don't delete shit people - you'll regret it and that was a pain in the ass to find on removeddit. Comments are here

So what did I get myself into?

  • A journey which continues that has improved EVERY ASPECT of my life in profound and unimaginable ways
  • A new worldview where things outside my control rarely bother me, and if they do – I can quickly work through them back to a calm mental state
  • The ability to go after what I want and judge myself based on my values and ideals – no one else’s
  • Seeing a shitty marriage, initially trying to ‘fix’ it and then realizing what I wanted would not be possible and burning it down a few months ago
  • Several periods of depression, questioning what the fuck I was doing, self-pity, failures, looking for external validation. For every two steps forwards there was a step back and sometimes it was 5 steps back.
  • The determination to keep moving the fuck forward. Day by day.

From that original post /u/SteelSharpensSteel distilled the entire process into a few sentences (because he's a fucking voodoo witch doctor at this shit):

“You want to know what you can do? Own your shit. Make slow, positive incremental changes in your life. Learn the tools. Shut the fuck up. Forgive yourself for making mistakes along the way.

Become better.”

Where am I now?

I’m in the process of divorce. It’s not been the ideal circumstances with COVID, but things are moving on. I’m in the best headspace of my life – true OI and DNGAF. I’ve seen two girls in the past 3 days. One I met her Monday and fucked her last night and this morning multiple times including in her ass. This is what is possible when you stop being a faggot. If I went back and told myself this 18 months ago, I would have bet against myself with 1,000,000:1 odds.

I have seen true desire from women. I will never settle for less.

My career continues to improve, financially I have a game plan post divorce to rebuild wealth. I am in an insanely calm mental state constantly. I simply enjoy life while I continue the small incremental improvement to make myself even better.

How

Pretty simple program here… I lifted, (attempted to) STFU, read the sidebar, reread the sidebar, and posted in OYS every single week for over 15 months without fail. Along the way I gained insights (and yes being called a faggot is an insight) and a serendipitous Morpheus IRL.

I got angry, I rambo’d hard, I lost frame multiple times. I put up with disrespect and physical assault from the STBX. I saw (and still see) attempts to turn my kids against me. But I weathered it all. There were certainly things I would do differently – not go Rambo, not tell my STBX of my divorce plans, not have talked so fucking much (STFU people). I would have listened to the warnings and vets who told me all this shit I had a huge ego and “thought I knew better”. I didn’t – and you reading this don’t either.

So to boil it down:

  1. Lift – now, today, don’t wait (ok if the gym is closed due to COVID then body weight) but do something
  2. Shut the fuck up – seriously, this was such a weak point for me and the source for a lot of failures
  3. Realize you’ll get angry and get an outlet for it – I took up Muay Thai and got it out in the Iron Temple. I still was angry and fucked up talking about it (see #2)
  4. Read read read – Read the sidebar, take your time, highlight, re-read, do any exercises in the books, really absorb the material
  5. Practice – you can’t just read, you have to practice and make those small incremental improvements. Don’t sit in an Ivory Tower reading all day – use the knowledge you have
  6. Realize that your wife (or LTR or g/f) is not the only woman out there – Keep going and no matter what happens YOU will be fine
  7. Listen to the vets and drop the ego and pretense. They see you bullshitting yourself or doing stupid shit – and there’s a good chance it’s because they did it themselves
  8. Stop hiding your true self – go after what the fuck you want relentlessly
  9. Never allow disrespect to continue in your relationship, set a boundary and enforce it even if it means the relationship is dead
  10. Do not let anyone tell you who you are and how to act. Be your own judge.