I stayed for 6 long years day by day with beautiful but very borderline diagnosed girlfriend. She refused the diagnostic and any therapy. She isolated me from the rest of the world with drama, antisocial behaviour, blackmails, screams and recurring violence.

I never had such beautiful girlfriend so I was drawn in, I supported dedicated to successfully helping her and almost lost my life twice in the process

Readapting to a normal life seems right now like a far away dream.

Which of these 25 things have happened to you too?

Some of the things she did during these 6 years, which left deep open wounds in me:

  1. She hitted me over my face impulsively with 4 knives, during a verbal disagreement. She was few mm close from cutting out my eyes. Later she said she forgot what was in the bag and behaved like it didn't matter and that her reaction was justified.

  2. After this, she followed me for 3 hours, to stop me from reporting, then hitted herself in the head with the knives until she was bleeding and showed it to me as being my fault. I felt sorry for her and I took her back after promising she'll never be violent again. She didn't keep her promises.

  3. Sex was indeed very good but only in the first year. Then she lost interest, and it became much much rarer and short. She gave me 3 times three different sexually transmitted diseases. Later I found out that she practiced prostitution for few months, as a "fulfillment of a fantasy she had"

  4. She was cutting herself, has cutted her wrists while in highschool, and she knew exactly how to cut herself to cut only superficially. To her exboyfriend she broke his head with his mobile phone, because he tried to stop her from cutting herself by hiding her razors. Then he broke up with him.

  5. She tried almost all the drugs she could get for free. She chose her "model" nickname after one of her favourite substances she was overdosing herself with to give her strong emotions.

  6. She told me in some mornings "Everytime you sleep I watch you and I want to kill you. But that's normal, everyone feels the same, but don't worry we only think about it, we don't actually do it"

  7. She told me literally: "My mother got scared of me when I told her that all children with small heads must be killed"

  8. She hitted me impulsively with whatever she had in her hand more than 6 separate times, although she promised she will not do it again. When she was drinking she became very violent, hitting me with her fists and legs.

  9. She practiced prostitution for 2 months, and she chose for herself a fake name that included the word "anal", which she said it was the name of a demon. When I pointed out that it was basically an invitation to anal sex (her favourite), she denied it repeteadly. Then I lost most of my friends, when I continued to talk to her even after she practiced prostitution and got infected with sexually transmitted diseases of course.

    1. She was finding exactly what I disliked/hated the most and then repeat exactly that torture for months. For example ice cold hands on my naked abdomen skin.
  10. She bullied 1 or 2 of her highschool colleagues into suicide. Then later, after few years, she was still visiting their cemetery graves and asked me to come and show to me. She was also telling me about the horrible smells from the cemetery, as something interesting for her.

  11. She isolated me from all my friends, often she would say horrible things like "You beat up kids! They are not your friends, they hate you or they don't care about you, you are too old," and many of such insults.

  12. In the last year it was 5% good moments, and 95% of extreme insults, violence against me, provocations, breaking up with me and then messaging me desperately after 2 days to help her with her imagined new recurring illnesses (she imagines she has recurrent diseases which was not the case, and she took no treatment, but she cries to the doctors about it and then blames the doctors as incompetent)

  13. Often she could not fall asleep until 4-5am in the morning, and she had to watch horror movies in order to fall asleep. As a result it was hard for me to sleep too sometimes.

  14. She had an obsession of noticing immediately any satan or demons reproductions in her surroundings, and then call them as "religious" symbols...

  15. She was pushing with stick eyes of few dead animals, watching them from closely, she seemed captivated by them, even when they were full of worms.

  16. She bullied her younger brother until he became agoraphobic and asexual. After such a relationship day by day the effects was the alienation and losing my family and my friends, as she manipulated and insulted my friends and me publicly and also in front of my friends constantly. With made-up dramas out of nothing. People escaping out of a relationship with a BPD often develop Post Traumatic Stress disorders.  I definitely have it too, and other very difficult to bear side effects

  17. Any smallest disagreement with her usually sent her into rages of fury in which she will discuss for many hours until late morning how everything is very wrong and how invariably everything is my fault.

  18. She can never save any money, she always spent all the money she had, the moment she touched the new money no matter if it was her money or not. For many years she spent only my money.

  19. She made alienating false accusations, without any connection with reality, with which she convinced her family and friends that I am some sort of monster. She was twisting the truth in very absurd ways. For example at night she came and walked on my head with her feet, without any care, while I was sleeping. I woke up and I tried to defend myself. She threw herself on the floor and said I pushed her and that I am "women-beater"

  20. She made up past rape and past "I was abused".

  21. She had times when she acted like possesed by demons, with an extreme force she tried to insert things in my body, in order to "show me how it is to be raped" although I was fighting hard to not let her do this

  22. Another time she jumped naked in bed next to me, pushing her ass in my face, violently trying to put objects inside my ass while I was shocked and trying to defend myself and saying all the time "NO! NO!", then she farted close to my face and laughed

  23. 2 or 3 times, just before after telling me to finish in her, she tells me coldly that "she wants to have 2 kids with  a gypsy", another time in the same situation/moment while having sex she says "I am in love with a guy from work I want to have kids with him" and the 3rd time, same timing, says "I want to have a black boyfriend with big muscles". I was feeling humiliated like noone ever before.