Hello, I'm a christian since I was 30 y.o, now I'm 36 y.o. In the church that I went, it happenned the logical. I fall intensive in love of a girl (10 years of difference). I'm an extreme shy person but working on the name of God's glory it makes me a more secure person. However, I was very self-demanding in terms of work, and matrimony (a duty in my innervision) and in christian perfection. Honestly this church (reformed) is the form of christianity that I believe for real, but since the day that that girl said to me that 'no', I am pretty much hurt to go to that church, but at the same time I still believe in reformed doctrine. I know that is a feeling and that I am giving excesive importance to a creature, and for the love of Jesus I have to mortify the flesh and endure to see her with her BF. I know what I have to do biblically (Jesus said "who loves father, mather, (creature) before me it's not mine") but how I deal with feelings? How I forget her? A feeling cannot makes you deny your beliefs in such a way. Blessings to all.

Mission: Forget a non mutual but deeply love and live in peace with the world. And begun my christian life again. And form a christian family.

Spiritual: I pray all days for a different causes. Also I try to mantain concentration in do all for God and that any member of my body do anything for God

Finance: Third World Country. So it's relatively fine

Work: Journalist. Currently without formal work (personal reductions because lockdown) but not for so much time. Strong work ethic.

Stats: Honestly I dont manage american stats so I declare my "french" stats: 1,72 mt; 64 kg. Thin.