Hello

Introducing my self, i do like this sub, and been lurking for a while. here I go.

Stats: 35% BF, 6'1", 135kgs/298lbs, OHP 77.5kgs/170.1lbs x1, Bench 80kgs/176.3lbs x5, Squat 155kgs/341.7 x3, conventional DL 185kgs/407.9lbs x1, Trap/Hex Bar DL 257.5kgs/567.7lbs x1 (I have been lifting on and off for like 18years, including martial arts etc). I'm mid to late 30s. currently lifting 2-4x a week.

Reading: I have read every post under "Post series" (100s 200s...) and the "For Singles", also read part of under cover sex signals (eye opener for sure) and parts of NMMNG, , parts of rational male and parts of The Manipulated Man. (There is much secular thinking in these books, and you have to be careful what you take in).

Finances: IT based, just over 6 figures (been maybe 1.5years earning that money, 1st time in my life, Thank God!), future prospects including working on my own projects, only debt i have is my car loan. I have some spare funds.

Spiritual: 10 years total since baptism, pray daily, sometimes 2-3 times, i often feel i have an open line with God, i read at random times, attend church Sundays and usually 1 other related activity a week, share my faith as i am led by the spirit, sometimes without, memorize Scripture as often as i can, the verse locations, apologetics, polemics, prophesy. Lots going on with me. Shutting up is huge (I will post a F.R. to speak about this if you guys would like).

So....

Never had a gf or partner or anything, generally could never get past getting a number, ultra-rare 1st date, always felt "cursed" (ha, self inflicted once you get to understand RP).

I used to always want one, but over the last few years i realized how everything is working against men, I'm better of single, and why would i bother, especially that Jezebel Rebellious Spirit is everywhere in modern Churches (forget the world). I got IOIs from a few low self esteem single moms who were vulnerable at the time (brand new to the faith, broken from life), and other older women (like 40+, like geez ladies, i am not dating someone 5-10 years older). As a Christian, i cannot in good faith take advantage of those broken women. I get some IOI's from women in Gym, made some acquaintances from some of the girls (regret that, waste of time), but my goodness are they horrible, from jokingly trying to intimate me, belittle me, and then telling me about all the random ONS they have (even when guys brag about this, to me its douchey). Not interested in the current status quo of western feminist relationships. She either submits or can find some one else.

Yes, the current 35% bf is a huge bane in my life, i often find myself unable to keep the discipline to diet, always hungry. I'm researching and trying different things to figure this out, need to get a handle on this asap.

Realized that i was never a man of value, nothing really to show for, nothing to offer, especially to women. II remember reading a comment recently somewhere on RP/MRP/RPC that having no women around is a indicator of lagging success, which struck me as very true. Also have many smaller health issues, i think they do impact my SMV. Rating it honestly, and this is not a "oh woe is me" rating, but a true self criticism, not self condemning, i would say about 3.

I got a long way to go.