Mission: I'm going to be the best 5 axis cnc machinist in the world.

Stats: 7% body fat, 6'0, 185 lbs, I can do 30 pushups at a time, haven't been to a gym in a while

Reading: Asktrp, RPC, TRP

Finances: High school special education teacher, 44k, in graduate school to be a principal, graduate this august, 45k in debt

Spiritual: Been reading bibles since I was like 6 or 7, started with picture and comic book Bibles and progressed to the adult ones, still prefer comic book bibles. I am mindful of God daily and try to practice mindfulness. Been on semen retention on and off for 3 years

Hi guys. I'm back with an update. I'm the original poster of this post so if you need some background, please read here

Just to recap, I've (25 M) been (sinfully) maintaining a relationship with a girl (28 F) who I thought I fell in love with. Many things were wrong with the picture that I chose to remain blind to. She's a single mother with a 3 year old, she claims to be Muslim (After begging her to pray and telling her that abortion is not Muslim, I realized she's not when she was still adamant), her dad seemed to like me at first but randomly decided to ban me from his house 6 months ago without any kind of forewarning whatsoever.

I messed up bad, I know. Please keep the insults and jeering to a minimum, I'm trying to fix this. No, I am not trolling, this all started out so normal and turned into a total shitshow. Please bear with me.

I posted on here out of desperation a couple of days ago, the day she told me she was 5 weeks and 3 days pregnant with my child, and immediately after, told me she was having an abortion. Of course, I tried to convince her not to, I spent hours trying to actually and she kept saying her mind was made up. I starting panicking desperately. I told her she would be punished for ending a life (this is when I found out she doesn't fear God), I told her that my mother wants a grandchild, to let me raise the baby myself. She said her plans were more important, she wants to go to school and be a nurse and another baby would get in the way. Nothing she was saying had any kind of logic behind it, they could easily be fixed and there were easy solutions to all of her worries but she was dead set on aborting my first child anyway.

I told her dad, through the door because she was going to hide this from him and he deserved to know. I was hoping he would do something about it because I've heard about his going to church and she told me he is Christian. He didn't open the door for me. He ignored me after I told him and told her that he would call the police if I showed up again.

Yesterday I took her to the mall to look at baby stuff, hoping that seeing cute stuff would somehow trigger some mothering hormones in her and soften her heart. At the end of the day, I was $60 short of money I spent at food at the food court for her and her kid. I came to her house, took out the trash for her, filled her car up with gas, took her to the mall, told her I would buy everything for the baby, found her kid who she lost in the mall with the help of mall security and the end of the day, she told me she was still having the abortion.

I went home feeling defeated. I prayed to God several times from the day she told me she was pregnant Monday, Jan 25, to yesterday, asking him to let this child live. I was doing what you guys told me to do, which is to do everything I can to save the baby.

When I got back to my house I texted her telling her to pray to God and ask him for guidance, not to make this decision alone. She replied saying, that nothing can change her mind and that is final.

I replied saying "Not even money?"

She said, "What do you mean money?"

I said, "Let my child live, and cancel the abortion and I'll give you $500 every two weeks."

She agreed instantly.

I realized a couple of things last night:

  1. AWALT
  2. I may be beta bucks in her eyes
  3. Money is her God.

I don't know how to proceed, I'm at her house right now with the $500. She was basically salivating over it as soon as I pulled it out of my pocket. I gave her $250 last night and she'll get the other $250 in a few hours when she calls planned parenthood to cancel the abortion. I have a large amount of contempt toward her but I feel like I have to play this cool if I want to see my child's face.

Advice?

Edit: After signing a contract I wrote in which she would be required to return my money if she got the abortion, I asked her to call planned parenthood to cancel the abortion. She refused, saying she "didn't want to be controlled". I made her return my money and had a few choice words before leaving. I don't know what to do, I don't want to suffer eternally if this baby dies.