Ok RPWives. I've posted on here a few times before.

So lately I've noticed a pattern in myself. When things are going really well between my partner and I, like I find myself literally counting my blessings and thanking God for bringing us together, then ineveitably I start feeling anxious. I will begin to feel nervous and scared, and will usually withdraw, pick a fight, or get weepy and have a meltdown. At first I really thought he was causing all of this, but as more time passes I'm almost certain that he's just being the same as always, and his good qualities are still there as well as the annoying or maddening. He is just going through his day being him.

I'm really seeking a fuller self awareness. My parents were divorced and his have had multiple partners/spouses, and I wish to know our pitfalls so that we can live together successfully. I am uncovering a large amount of insecurities in me that I never really realized existed. I think I'm able to discover this because of the constancy of the relationship.

Internet searches are only giving me info about men pulling away after good times. I would like to know if anyone had any insight or guesses that might help set me off in a good direction of self-awareness.

Thank you!