For the last decade I made about 3x what my husband made while working in the medical field. Before meeting him I was diagnosed with Ehlers Danlos (a genetic connective tissue disease) and Dysautonomia (dysfunction of the autonomic nervous system). Both were managed fairly well, but all of those crazy work hours and all that crazy call at the hospital wore me down in my early thirties leaving me no choice but to quit. I feel it’s my fault for not slowing down more in my twenties and that is my fault for having a hard time saying no when I was younger. It’s at a point where I never know if I’m going to have a good health day or a bad one. Sometimes it starts out good and then on the middle of the day I’m curled up on the couch. It’s a huge grieving stage that I’m in. My husbands business has been taking off and he is very supportive about me not working, but I think the issue is after being crazy busy for so many years I’m not okay with this and have always took pride in myself on being independent. We don’t have kids after three miscarriages over the years (I’ve made peace with motherhood not being in my future), but with that being said I feel useless. I’m not saying anyone in my position is useless; I’m just saying I feel useless. Has anyone gone through something similar and do you have any advice? Thank you guys in advance!