I have been a very long term lurker here. This is a place I come to in order to re-ground myself in this world. Thank you all so much for that! I apologize for the long winded writing now.
Being here has taught me quite a lot about being a safe or soft place to land for my Captain. I sometimes forget how important that can be but then there are nights like this that I remember and I come back.
My Captain is an extremely dedicated man. He works long hours in very cold weather to take care of us (myself, and our three fur children who are our pride and joy). On Wednesday he let me know that the next day he needed to be up and at work by 7am to catch a ride to our neighboring state to pick up a truck for work. We recently moved to a new state with a much smaller work yard that the old one which meant he didn't have his own truck to work off of yet. He was slated to be home from grabbing the truck Friday evening.
When he got home he was a poor drained zombie, he had been driving for 10+ hours on icy roads with an admittedly crappy truck. He was exhausted. Pretty much as soon as we got home he parked himself on the couch with a YouTube video pulled up to unwind. I had missed him and of course sat beside him for a cuddle.
He grabbed my legs, swung them over his and laid his head in my lap with the most contented look on his face. For 20 minutes he laid with his head in my lap just nuzzling my thighs and saying he missed me last night. This man is so strong every single day, it takes my breath away that he sees fit to show me his vulnerable side. He only let go when his stomach started to growl and I said I would go make him some ravioli. (It's a home made recipe, dough and filling from scratch, I even partake despite the carb heaviness and collateral annoyance to my stomach.)
Three different times while I was in the kitchen making dinner he came in to hug me and thank me for making his favorite food. While he was sat down to eat and I was fixing up some stuff in the bedroom waiting for mine to cool he said "thank you" or "this is delicious baby!" whenever I had to grab something from the living area.
I may not have always shown my Captain that I thought he was a treasure but now, each day I recommit to showing him that he is my Captain and that I love and care for his well being. Each day he shows me that he is more worthy of that than ever.
Edit: Tomorrow I have decided that I will be telling my Captain how deeply I respect him, as a man, a provider, and as my Him. I feel like I haven't done that enough in the last year. I will be changing that. He has done so much more than I can explain, it would need its own mega post I think.