I have been lurking on this site for quite a while. I read things on this site and I always agree with it. I have been implementing a lot of these things into my life. I have been trying to lose weight, I have been growing my hair out and curling it because that is his preference, I have been putting on makeup but not to much because he likes that natural look. However, I know this is not the only thing that is important. I work over 40 hours a week so sometimes cleaning is not done as much as I would like and I do not cook as much as I should. However, I have been trying to do better with these things. I wait on him. He is a gamer so he spends a lot of time on the computer on one side of the apartment while I do my thing on the other side. I will bring him beers when he is out or see if he needs anything else. Just when I feel like I am making progress, I do something that he does not like. Probably a significant issue of mine, keep talking, in public, when I know he wants me to be quiet. I realize afterwards that this probably does not make him feel like the captain. My SO is most definitely a RP personality. However, in the moment.. I just keep talking. This usually turns into a fight. How come I cannot learn to shut up? But the biggest issue is when I get angry. I guess you could say that I have issues with my family. My mom is an alcoholic and my dad was not around much growing up. Issues with Anger management definitely runs in my family. Most of them are medication for it. But I am tired of this being my excuse. I take out a lot on my SO seeing that I do not have any friends to vent to and he does not deserve that. If I get angry, I am really angry. Its like all of the RPW just flies out the window. Anything I have slightly been irritated about in the past comes out. I scream, I say things I really should not because they are not how I truly feel. This has been causing such a toll on our relationship. I just have not been able to figure out a way to help control my anger and how to teach myself to think in that moment. So I came here, to ask you all for help or any suggestions.