Lately, Recently I am swallowing hared truth about women's value.Life is truly bad after 30 unless you are married with good man. I am jealous of man who can enjoy sex life without any consequences.Its great that they will be valued for something they worked hard.It is opposite for women.They don't get period,pregnant, stretch marks are less common for them.Even if someone says woman are also valued in something ,it doesn't make me feel good.Phsical Attractiveness of men lasts longer than physical Attractiveness of woman. Even if men make mistakes and lose good woman,still he can get his shit together be hvm and can get younger good wife but that good wife will hit wall later especially if she had kids.
I am on my self improvement journey.I am taking care of skin, exercising.Whenever I see men at Gym I immediately get jealous.My brother has long eyelashes and good looking,he wash his face with towel and perfect skin. He is going have good times later on.I even think about choosing to die before turning 30.
Whenever I see my improved body.I just feel sad as it not gonna stay same forever. pregnancy and age are going to take toll.I have to be okay with sharing men (I am monogamous)as his smv will get high.I don't know how I will do it.Problem is i want to adopt kids rather than get pregnant.But I realised no true hvm wants that.If infertile,you gonna get dumped.
I know this is unhealthy for me but I am getting hard time over this and it is affecting me.If you guys felt same way how do you dealt with it?How did you swallowed hard truth and moved forward?
Edit-Wow,I am surprised for getting upvotes .I thought I will be hated for this.Thank you for upvotes.