Long time supporter and lurker on my main account but here on a throwaway.

I’m 18 and I will be 19 coming up soon. Money is hard to come by in college and I always saw Tik Toks of girls flaunting how much money they made being a sugar baby or having an Only Fans. This inspired me, and with the permission and serious talk with my boyfriend (NO persuading, he was open to it because it’s purely just for the money), to take a dive into Seeking Arrangements in hopes to earn some money, but I didn’t have luck with that particular site. I then made a Twitter where I posted my lewd (NOT nude) photos for advertisement and I have grown a following of ~750 followers.

I have made $300+ from this. It’s hard to put down, especially when men will slap $30 in your face for a 5 minute ass play video that is so easy to create.

I have had this account since last October. I feel like I have defiled my own body. I no longer feel like this innocent little lady. Deep down, I feel like a slut. I have to talk to men in my messages because if you ignore your potential customer, why would they buy? I feel like I have disgraced my boyfriend. My photos were once for him and him ONLY. Now they are in the hands of whoever, all for some side cash. I feel like a broken woman. Part of me wishes I had never done this. I did sell nudes of my ass and chest, but I have never shown my bare “downstairs” (I have only shown it scarcely in underwear shots). Despite my bad feelings, I can’t bring myself to just delete this source of income. It’s the only one I have right now. I used to look down upon girls who did this type of thing. Now I am one of the same.

Ladies, please give me words of comfort and advice. Help bring me out of this. I know it’s wrong in my heart to do this. Tell me your stories. The only person who knows about my account is my boyfriend, but he doesn’t really understand how disgusting I feel with myself about it. I’ve never even had this many followers on anything. Sometimes it serves as an outlet and my followers give me instant support in their replies. I guess that’s another reason why I don’t want to delete it.

Note: I made it a point to NOT share my real name or my face or anything else important. I even edited distinct freckles/birth marks out of my photos and tried to eliminate the background as much as possible for my own safety.

Thank you for caring enough to read if you made it this far.