I’m crushing on engaged man (engaged 3.5 yrs) tell me to delete his contact info

We’re both Arab (26-28), and the fact he’s been engaged for so long is weird, and I relied too much on that. But ya I can tell he likes me but he likes others females as well. I keep texting him dumb questions, and then saying sorry for not thinking through the question. I hate this, it’s like binging on a ton of ice cream and feeling gross because I know how undignified and gross i am.

Ive been very mentally unwell. On a side story I witnessed a human trafficking incident in Eastern Europe (I was there for work) a few months ago, and I reported to the police. As a result I made myself vulnerable to retaliation while in the country, and had no help. Ever since then I’ve been unhinged unproductive and paranoid, and I think I’ve been giving off a vibe.