My SO recently lost his job; he's a very intelligent, driven man who was the victim of a power play, and I have no doubts that he will find something far better soon.

In the meantime though, I've been noticing a lot of my behavior changing. Firstly, I am incredibly bitter at his former employer - this was a small family-run (not his family) company, and I had gotten to know many of the people there. I trusted them. He did amazing work for them and sacrificed a lot, I feel like they personally wronged him. I know this is not my place to say anything to them and I have promised him to keep my mouth shut should we ever run into any of the ones I am blaming, but I want nothing more than to look the one person I particularly blame in the face and say "You are a morally-bankrupt, pathetic excuse for a human being and I hope you outlive your children." That should give you an idea of how livid I am.

Secondly, I've noticed that I am telling my SO to do all sorts of things and being very pushy. The fact that I'm doing this makes me very uncomfortable. We are able to continue living on my income, but I don't feel right being the breadwinner. He's been working on a lot of projects on the house that he hasn't had the time for until now and has been catching up on other things that I would typically spend my lunch hour doing. I'm very grateful for that, but I don't like this current dynamic; I feel like our whole life has been turned upside down. He's being very, very calm about the whole thing, and I'm grateful for his level-headed attitude. I'm maintaining a calm exterior (to the point that several people have taken me aside to ask how I am staying so calm) but I feel very overwhelmed. I work a demanding job as well, and my work load recently doubled due to another paralegal getting fed up and deciding to retire on the spot.

How should I be managing this? Should I just continue to keep my mouth shut? I feel like I have a lot of pent up feelings that I need to get out somehow, but I don't have anywhere to let them out. I know this will change soon, but this is such an uncomfortable feeling and I hate it.