So just last week i listened to the audio book for no more Mr. nice guy which i feel may have been thee most important book i've ever read in my life . It made me appreciate not being the blue pill i thought i needed to be to be liked , loved, and considered of value and instead it taught me to approach life with a more alpha mentality, if i make myself happy then and only then can i make others happy and attract those who want to be a part of my happiness. The biggest gaping hole in me as a person has been dealing with abandonment issues and feeling unloved due to what i viewed as a weak absentee father that never cared for me.

Thankfully the book helped me to see that I saw my father for the image my mother painted of him , not for who he actually was and it reccomended i try to get a new father figure or reach out to my father to gain insight and wisdom on his perspective of being a man. I did so immediately after finishing that chapter.

So the night began like any other with my dad, we loosely talked about or jobs in vague terms , trying to sound interested and invested in eachother but like all of my brief meetings with him until this point. It ultimately felt like two strangers dancing around their true feelings .

After we ordered food, sat down, and chatted a little more i opened up to him . I told him about reading the book and how it had opened my eyes . How my mother made him out to be a monster, how i hated him, how i felt abandoned by him , and yet how i always wanted to know him better and my goal was to understand him better by the end of the night.

He shared with me that he hated himself for the mistakes he made with my mom. How he had tried to make various connections with me but my moms anger wouldn't let him at first and then just dealing with his personal guilt made him shitty when he was near me when i was younger.

We talked about a lot i had questions about my grandfather , i found out two potential siblings were aborted before my dad accepted my pregnancy with my mother. I heard from his mouth why they broke up . He told me about his childhood . It was a really open and honest conversation that i needed and I think it provided nourishment for both of us both emotionally and mentally.

I think what i loved more than anything was hearing the old man spout red pill truths he attained over his life " Don't get pussy whipped and know your value", " being in a relationship with a woman is like managing a child", and he even showed me a few facebook exchanges he has with women half his age , none he's interested in leaving his LTR for but always knowing he has options. He me tioned he shared the fact they reached out to him with her....perhaps his own personal dread game?

It was fantastic and i especially enjoyed when he said he saw the changes that took place in me . For the first time in my life i told him I loved him and actually meant it, didn't say it because i was supposed to, didn't say it because i had to, i said it because i felt it and i wanted to let him know.

I also feel proud of myself for arranging a meeting with him, for setting the tone of our conversation and being the first to speak up, as i said that book may be THEE most important thing i've ever read and it's all thanks to TRP .

Thank you Gentleman getting women is well and good but you have all helped me grow more in the last few weeks than i had over the past 25 years. My selef esteem is higher than it's ever been and i realize now just how many insane insecurities i was holding onto before..... Who thinks to himself regularly and completely unnaproached " am I breathing too loud"? Somebody who feels his very existence needs to be validated and managed to others expectations with each passing breath.

Thank you all.